Thoughts from a Girl Who Looks Up at the Sky

Another Year of Self Realization


While the Sun is in Capricorn, the full moon approaching, as always, will be in Cancer. Two opposing forces: Capricorn, the stern father figure and Cancer, the nurturing mother. This full moon will no doubt have the spotlight. The moon is at home in the sign of Cancer. Extreme loyalty, trouble letting go of the past, the need to feel safe and secure at home. This intense full moon will be a test to deal with our emotions. Cancer wants to suppress and Capricorn wants to move on.

This is a special moon for me because it appears on my birthday (January 4th). My Sun is also in Capricorn and I’m a lunar Cancer, so I’m sure I will be feeling the influence three-fold. I’m well aware of how Cancer moon harbors feelings, but I know it’s time I face mine and let go of pains and insecurities of the past.

This has been an interesting year. One of self discovery and change. Actually, I find that each year, I change and grow a lot in some way. I discover new things about myself, become more confident and more sure of what I want out of life. It’s unsettling to think there are others out there who can’t pick themselves up and who ultimately, never change. I’ve come across such individuals, ones who are geniuses and posses qualities I wish I had, but feel awful about themselves. I always wanted to help them and nurture them, make them see how wonderful they are! But one thing I’ve learned this year is that change comes only to those who are ready. I can be influential and provide assistance, but I cannot force anyone to change their outlook on life. I can only do that for myself.

To the full Cancer moon! May we all recognize our deepest emotions and be unafraid of who we are. Let’s embrace our good qualities and weed out the bad, working towards a better self. Capricorn demands self-improvement and we can only deliver that if we let go.

This is the final stanza to Adrienne Rich’s poem, “Planetarium”. I read it a couple of months ago and have been meaning to mention it. This seems like a good time. The language she uses for empowerment and self discovery is really beautiful.

“I am bombarded yet           I stand

I have been standing all my life in the
direct path of a battery of signals
the most accurately transmitted most
untranslatable language in the universe
I am a galactic cloud so deep      so invo-
luted that a light wave could take 15
years to travel through me       And has
taken       I am an instrument in the shape
of a woman trying to translate pulsations
into images for the relief of the body
and the reconstruction of the mind.”

Happy new year all.

( Read the entire poem here)


3 responses

  1. Hey, best regards, and I hope 2015 is a good year for you!

    Liked by 1 person

    January 1, 2015 at 5:58 am

    • Thank you! I have a feeling it will be. Best wishes for you and your family! BTW I read the first bone book! So funny and touching! I will have to think about his zodiac sign…

      Liked by 1 person

      January 2, 2015 at 1:16 am

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